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Sunday, July 15, 2007

nothing much. =]

Last night i slept at 6am. Well, not really night anymore. But yeah.

This morning i woke up at 9am. My head at present is like WHOAH. It hurts.
Like real bad.

It was worth it though.  Because I got to see Jane Toh , and Jocelyn and Sook Wai (dont really know this one. but yay nontheless). Awwww. High school reunion on a small scale. We went for Thai food. My order was goooooooooooooooood. But the portion was BIG.

At the table, conversations were being thrown here and there. back and forth. Over and under each other. (there were 5 of us. i forgot the other person's name ). And a bit/some of the conversation went something like this:

"Ohhhh. I heard u got THREEEEEE High Distinctions and ONEEEE Disctinction. WOW"

"I don't think it's enough to get a scholarship"

"I heard from whats her face that you got LOTS of High Distinctions"

"I can't watch tv anymore. Uni is starting tomorrow"

 

ANNNND I'm sitting there thinking, "OH MY GOLLY!!"
I didn't get any HIGH DISTINCTIONS. or whatsoever. Me and Jane just looked at each other and go, "i feeel so dumb!"
MIND YOU. Jane is a freakin smart student too. Straight A's student and all that jazz. She was just being dramatic to join in my I-feel-so-dumb moment. dammit. 

BUT BUT. We were all from the same class back in Malaysia.  
I'm sure i can do it too. Therefore. I have decided for the bajillionth time, that I will not slack off. And aim for the best-EST.
For the Bajillionth time. Yes yes. Watch me grow. And watch me say it again the next time i dont get any HIGH distinctions.

And this time. I will try my hardest to go to the library during exam period and pretend to study.

I AM SOOO EXCITED. This is my semester. Kenny's happy time (hahaha. Transformers. Okay. that was lame, i know. But My blog. deal with it. )



So yeah. catching up with the old buddies is cool. Makes me think of good ol times. The times when we cheat in exams. When we think of ways to cheat in exams. When we think of ways to not be seen while cheating in exams. The one thing we didnt think was what to do if we were caught cheating in exams. And according to Suraj we were all caught once. BUT I soooooo do not remember us being caught. So he is lying.

*back to good ol days*

When we all played Uno during the end of the years. When we watch What's-his-face (i forgot his name) play badminton and call him the "dancing dragon". I think his name started with a "J". When we all got disgusted thinking of Pn. Choong and her sitting-on-the-table-and-opening-her-legs-wide-open-while-wearing-a-freakin-skirt.  And many more. Can't think right now.

AHHHH. good times. good times. I miss them. Life was simple. All we had to do was stress about memorising Moral principles word by word (which Stacy did a wonderful job in). And, getting early to class to copy friends' homework. And where to hide our mobile phones (if we had any). And what to eat during lunch break; FRIED WANTONS, KEROPOK LEKOR tambah cili.

BEST DAYS of my life. Moving to Melbourne was hard. I didnt get to finish my education there. With the people i enjoy the most. It sucked. Hearing all the funny stories and hilarious shit that happened when i was here being a loner and had no friends in high school. But what's great is the friendship betweeen some of me old friends. awwwwwww. We're still awesome buddies. and and. time and distance had not in any way ruined the friendship. No doubt that i have drifted apart from some. But the one's that stick around are truly YUMMY. HELL YEAH. so yeah. Life is good. in some ways. Cant complain.


 

 

and here are some picture's from the grampions. I went for my winter holiday. 3 days and 2 nights. It's mainly for sight seeeing. But with a little alcohol (a lot of alcohol). and some DVDs. Fun is just a shot away. or two shots. and some coke and lemonade.

 

 

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Here is where we stayed. That is King and Sandy.

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A mountain and some trees.

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A tree.

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More trees.

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A tree. I like this picture.   It looks niceee. I'm such a
good photographer. After several attempts.
As seen on the previous trees.

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Going down to see the waterfall.
How traumatizing.

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Still going down.

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YAY.!

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I'm not sure if this is the same waterfall.
It looks different. But we saw a few
waterfalls.

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Sandy. King. Me

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Sandy and King. Lovers. oo0o0o0ooo.

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Going up. to somewhere.

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Another lookout we went to. It had the BEST view ever.

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EVER...!!!

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Sandy. Me. Hugging.

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Luu loo luuu luu lu luuuu!!!

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Loved.

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Oh hello there.

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King and Me.

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Tekken.

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Awwwwww.

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We're not drunk. We just like falling down.

 

THAT is all for now.

 

byebye.

 

 

Oh oh. before i go. Something rather funny happened in the lift today. So i was in the lift with this Tall dude. Then, the cleaning lady joined us in the lift. She looked at him, pointed at his lower lip and asked, "what is that?". The boy said, "It's a piercing".

The cleaning lady laughed out loud and said, "I know it's a piercing."

And there i was, standing there, TRYING so hard not to laugh. She was the one who freakin asked him what it was. geeeezus.
Then she went , "where are you from?"
The boy replied with, "Brazil."

 

THEN.. (hohohoho)... they started talking in some foreign language. LIKE FULL ON.

OKAI. it's not that funny. But it was funny for me. Just coz i was there and experienced it live. especially the piercing bit.

byebye.

 

 

 

 

 

 


Friday, July 13, 2007

Have I really.?

I'm suppose to be asleep. But as usual, I can't seem to fall asleep. Insomniac? Maybe.

 

So last night two close buddies of mine said to me that i have changed since they first met me. They've known me for about a year and a bit now. And it made me think. Have I really changed?
And I think I have to agree with both of them. And I'm sure that many of my friends out there would agree with them as well.

Change is not always bad i guess. And I dont think i have changed for the worse. Yen said that I'm less friendly and stuff. HAHAHA. I find that quite funny. But I guess in a way I can see where he's coming from. Having gone through so much for the past 2 years, I think I'm just more protective of myself. My guard is up. I'm trying to be more careful. More aware of things around me. More alert. I want to be able to pick up on things before something bad happens.

Before this I was rather immature. Angry. Naive. Vulnerable. and all that jazz.
And yeah. Change
 was much needed.

And I can say that im doing well. I havent changed in personality or in my morals and beliefs in life. Everything good still stands. It's my weaknesses that needs fixing. But some things I guess I can never change about myself. I'm not gonna list them here. lol. Coz people that read will use it against me.



Well. People that care and worry about me: I'm doing alright. I'm pushing through. It's not gonna be easy. But everyone goes through problems. And I am thankful that I do have friends that hold my hand and walk with my through life. Even though they may not be physically here with me.



And here are pictures i came across today while missing my best friends.

 

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I miss you two lots. And I love you(s).
Both of you are GORGEOUS.


awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

 

 






Friday, June 29, 2007

I'msofreakintiredofeverythingthat'sgoingoninmylifelately.
Andipromisemynextpostwillbeahappyone.
Coz,whowantstoreadkennyproblemsoverandoveragain.
Althoughthisismyblog,istilldontwanttokeeprantingaboutshittythings.

therefore.

 

 

happypost.
nextone.
promise.

unlessshitthingshappenandanegativepostisunavoidable.




NITE.!


Thursday, June 28, 2007

.....

Today after hearing stuff from a buddy, I think I can finally relate to people who have felt the biggest betrayal. and the biggest disappointment. and the biggest let down. EVER. So this is how it feels ey? Feeels shit.

 

Not that i didnt know this was coming. But didn't know this muchhh was coming.


To be honest, I'm not even mad. Coz people who know me know that i am not one who lingers in a state of ANGER.  It's just that i've never felt this much disappointment. This has gone on for far too long and is getting pretty fucked up.

People/friends/family who do know me also know that i do not hold a place in my heart for hate. I don't hate. I am still able to see the good in someone despite all the shit they did to me. Or the shit they do to others. That's just me.


Seriously. What is the point of all this? So pointless.

It's probably all my fault. 


I don't even wanna talk about it no more.

 

 

I'm done with being pushed aside. I'm done with being too nice. I'm done with all the crying (yeah i cry). I'm done being the "stupid" Kenny; naive and clueless. Done with all the lies.

Done with all the stories. Done with all the make-up excuses/reasons for ones doings/actions.


Stop all the shit talking.
Stop talking shit about me.


I did nothing to deserve this.


And i certainly didn't ask for this.
If taking the blame for everything would stop this.
I would take the blame, really.


pls.

 

 

This has to end.
And don't even bother fixing it. Let it go. Doing more would just exacarbate it.  







Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Currently Listening
Hurricane
By Eric Benet
Cracks Of A Broken Heart
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uhh-yeah

Ever felt so tired of pretending?

Pretending to be happy.
Just so people dont know.

So people don't get worried.



Yeah. beeen doing that for a while now.

It's not that im not all happy-happy.
Just that I'm un-happy most of the time.

 

Yeah. what a loser.

I think that of myself too.
saddens me.

='(








Anyway.
Had a conversation with someone i haven't contacted in a while earlier on.

It was good.
I felt i talked too much though. lol.
I have no idea why. Maybe i was trying to update that person on my life.
But all in all, i had a good conversation.

The sucky bit is that it brought up memories.
Not that it's a bad thing. Coz they were good memories.
Actually only the goood one's came to mind.

BUT. yeah. We shouldn't live in the past.
The past only shapes how we live and think now.

and for that.... i am greatful.




OHHHH.
Today i met king and sandy.
They took me to see kangaroos.
but not many were there.
but  both king and sandy were real naughty.
lol.


It's so cute.

BOTH of them have one of the most Fun, loving and FUn relationships I've ever seen.
They have their problems of course. But they always come through.
That's what a relationship is about i think.
Life isn't perfect... why should a relationship be?
Work through imperfections.... and then u realize it's worth it.



Well. ON a happier note.
I did laundry today.
My washing machines is so damn fucken stoooooopid
*rolls eyes while saying OMG*


I don't know how to use it and the first time i used it.. it was HORRIFIC.

but i thought , "hey... you deserve a second chance"
and i used it. and HELL YEAH. it worked.

IM GOOOOOOOOOD.

*applause*

 

 

 

 

 

gnite.

._.

 

P/s im not depressed.
lol

hell no.



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